Confessions from a teacher: I used to want to impress you

Do you ever feel you need to prove yourself to your yoga teacher? Do you correct your posture when he walks nearby or you think he's watching? It has happened to me... 

I think that a teacher is someone who has studied the practice, techniques, theory, philosophy, anatomy, methodology... but mainly someone has worked deeply on himself, who is curious about who he is, and likes to share, with love and compassion, the benefits of what he has find in the practice.

"A good teacher shows you where to look, but does not tell you what to see" - Alexandra K. Trenfor. 

I easily deposit my complete trust on my teachers, and "if they say I should do so, I'll do so". This brought me to a big shock when I asked a teacher what to do with a knee injury and his answer was I should locate if it was on the inside or outside of the knee, and then try to be aware of how it hurt, so I'd know what to do... WHAT?!?! I WANTED A RECIPE!! An exhaustive list of do's and don'ts (exercises, super foods, variations). How would I know what to do?! That was the reason I had approached him in the first place... Until (way later) I understood what he was doing; he was getting me to connect with my inner teacher; that voice within me that tells me where to go deeper and where to go slower (or shouldn't go at all). After all, he wouldn't be with me every time I had an injury. And that was his greater gift for me, telling me where to look, but not what to see. 

For me it's hard to think of myself as a teacher. Just to think that someone expects from me as much as I used to expect from my teachers is overwhelming. I DON'T KNOW IT ALL, and I'm wrong way more than I like to admit. I learn new things everyday, and forget old things everyday. I can't teach you what to feel, I don't know what's going on inside of you, but I can point where you can look for answers.  

The fact that you are on your mat is more than enough; you're not there to prove anything to anyone. I'm forever grateful for having the opportunity to keep learning every day from the best teachers I've ever had; my students. I'd like to make it clear: I'm not there to judge you, I'm there to learn.

And that's why I think of myself more as a student than a teacher.